Peer pressure is all around us. It begins the moment we enter into elementary school. If you are not careful it will consume you and drive your decisions. It can become a driving force in the lives of many people. When you give into peer pressure you loose a part of your identity.
An inner conflict begins to grow inside you because it is natural for your spirit to oppose the fact that you are taking in another identity that is viewed as foreign. When you conform to the norms of a group just to fit in, your fitting in comes with a price called your identity. Don't find your self in an identity crisis because you have settled for less just to fit in. Your identity is priceless and can never be bought or sold.
I understand rejection and the pain that comes with it. I am all too familiar with it, but I would still rather face the rejection than loose my soul/identity/will trying to fit in. You have to like yourself first. Often times people join groups, clicks, organizations just to be liked. But I submit to you that if you don't like/love yourself first, it will only be a matter of time that you find yourself in a conflict with others and yourself.
Take the time to understand you. Love you. And accept you. Then find people, groups, and organizations that are willing to accept all of you. If they can't do that then don't settle. Face the rejection, brush your shoulders, and press forward. What they didn't like about you others will love...that is certain, you just have to keep looking.
Peer pressure can cause you to go against what you believe or want. You stop being you to satisfy others. Your will is becomes driven by others. And without our will, who are we. The essence of our identity can be found in our will.
People who learn to become grounded can better resist peer pressure. When you are grounded you know who you are. Knowledge, experience, and wisdom will cause you to become grounded. But in order for you to truly inherit this gift, you have to get closer to the God who gives wisdom through knowledge and experience (AKA tests in life). Don't ever miss the scheduled test God has for you, or you'll miss the lesson all together. The ground you stand on has to be rooted in God, otherwise, you will be driven by whatever direction the wind blows (peer pressure). With that said, you can't be afraid of making mistakes. It is part of the ground you have to be able to stand on and be rooted in.
Getting in with the wrong crowd can be disastrous for your life. Once you realize it, it can take years for you to recover.
Be yourself, accept yourself, and surround yourself with great people who accept everything about you. Stop caring about what people think of you and be free. When you are no longer bound by people, but Christ alone, you live in a freedom unknown to men outside of Christ. Freedom is our greatest reward from Christ. He came to set us free. He is in charge of every authority, therefore STOP giving people control!!
Be blessed and inspired by my message. I have the authority to speak these words only because I have been through the test and understand how to bring you out.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
A Maturity Issue
In order to be mature, you must first overcome immature. Immaturity is part of the process in learning to become mature and it should never be disregarded. It is God's desire for us to mature, but he understands that the maturity process takes time.
An immature person needs to mature in whatever he/she is immature in. If a husband is immature, then in order to mature, he needs to mature in love for his wife. If an immature wife needs to mature, then it would be in respecting and supporting her husband. A child matures through obedience.
As graduate students on the verge of success, we need to arrive in maturity before being able to attain and enjoy that success. From maturity comes discipline. The best way to mature in anything is through discipline and obedience. If you discipline yourself in not spending more than what you can afford, you mature in it. The payment for that discipline is two folded. You gain maturity and wealth. The same goes for life. In this life we have to learn how to mature.
The problem with maturity is that we become afraid of change. We dislike the growing pains associated with maturity. We don't know what change will look like. But what we should fear the most is what you will look like in a few years when no change occurs. How far behind you will be. And how dysfunctional you will look.
Change in your life doesn't mean an identity shift. It means a better you, a better life, and possible different opportunities. But how will you be ready for those opportunities if you never change. There is nothing worse than seeing someone in a position that hasn't matured yet. When you hit the ground running people can tell you're not ready for that position. How do you then gain credibility with a group of people who know you're not ready to be in their presence.
If you allow yourself to be criticized by God, He will reveal the areas of growth that is required and assist you in that growth. That growth may be painful but very necessary if you are ever going to become what He desires and live to your maximum potential.
If you don't heed to the truth and grow, whatever disposition you are in, those around you will suffer because they too (unbeknown) will suffer.
Don't be afraid to change, grow, and mature. It is part of the process and it will happen with or without your consent, so embrace it. Be encouraged and inspired!
An immature person needs to mature in whatever he/she is immature in. If a husband is immature, then in order to mature, he needs to mature in love for his wife. If an immature wife needs to mature, then it would be in respecting and supporting her husband. A child matures through obedience.
As graduate students on the verge of success, we need to arrive in maturity before being able to attain and enjoy that success. From maturity comes discipline. The best way to mature in anything is through discipline and obedience. If you discipline yourself in not spending more than what you can afford, you mature in it. The payment for that discipline is two folded. You gain maturity and wealth. The same goes for life. In this life we have to learn how to mature.
The problem with maturity is that we become afraid of change. We dislike the growing pains associated with maturity. We don't know what change will look like. But what we should fear the most is what you will look like in a few years when no change occurs. How far behind you will be. And how dysfunctional you will look.
Change in your life doesn't mean an identity shift. It means a better you, a better life, and possible different opportunities. But how will you be ready for those opportunities if you never change. There is nothing worse than seeing someone in a position that hasn't matured yet. When you hit the ground running people can tell you're not ready for that position. How do you then gain credibility with a group of people who know you're not ready to be in their presence.
If you allow yourself to be criticized by God, He will reveal the areas of growth that is required and assist you in that growth. That growth may be painful but very necessary if you are ever going to become what He desires and live to your maximum potential.
If you don't heed to the truth and grow, whatever disposition you are in, those around you will suffer because they too (unbeknown) will suffer.
Don't be afraid to change, grow, and mature. It is part of the process and it will happen with or without your consent, so embrace it. Be encouraged and inspired!
The Road to a Doctoral Degree
The road to a doctoral degree certainly isn't an easy one. There are several things you need to learn when going down this process. For one you have to be a great manager of time. You have to balance life, work, education, and whatever else you have going on.
It requires vision, purpose, and focus.
In order to obtain such a degree, you have to purposefully work towards graduation by doing something everyday that is focused on graduation and the requirements thereof.
There is a triple beam balance of the course work, understanding and applying the statistics, and your dissertation. Many people fail in achieving the dream of getting their dissertation because they don't grasp all three concepts of the trifold requirement for graduation.
The course work not only involves the work that you have to turn in according to the syllabus but also the Lead Reads assigned for each semester.
The dissertation requires you to know and understand your topic and stay focused on the premise of it. You will need to become an expert in your topic which requires in depth reading of several books, articles, and journals that are credible. You will not only need to develop a flawless literature review, but also collect data to support your position and report the findings through statistical analysis using a statistics program like SPSS. You will need to understand your method, findings, and application and give great feedback to your audience on what to do next.
The statistics will require you to have a great understanding of how to apply the information to your study to prove your hypothesis which you will gather through questions that will guide your study. Depending on whether you are doing a qualitative or quantitative study will determine what direction you will need to take to collect, analyze, and validate your findings.
Once you are able to successfully conquer the trifold requirements of this degree, you can defend your position (dissertation) and be granted the writ of passage to becoming "Dr_________."
I look forward to becoming Dr. Rosa Thompson, but I know the journey of a thousand miles takes daily steps. I make it my business to take those steps so I can finally arrive to the destination God has for me. Be encouraged in anything you do and remember to do something everyday that will contribute to you achieving that goal.
It requires vision, purpose, and focus.
In order to obtain such a degree, you have to purposefully work towards graduation by doing something everyday that is focused on graduation and the requirements thereof.
There is a triple beam balance of the course work, understanding and applying the statistics, and your dissertation. Many people fail in achieving the dream of getting their dissertation because they don't grasp all three concepts of the trifold requirement for graduation.
The course work not only involves the work that you have to turn in according to the syllabus but also the Lead Reads assigned for each semester.
The dissertation requires you to know and understand your topic and stay focused on the premise of it. You will need to become an expert in your topic which requires in depth reading of several books, articles, and journals that are credible. You will not only need to develop a flawless literature review, but also collect data to support your position and report the findings through statistical analysis using a statistics program like SPSS. You will need to understand your method, findings, and application and give great feedback to your audience on what to do next.
The statistics will require you to have a great understanding of how to apply the information to your study to prove your hypothesis which you will gather through questions that will guide your study. Depending on whether you are doing a qualitative or quantitative study will determine what direction you will need to take to collect, analyze, and validate your findings.
Once you are able to successfully conquer the trifold requirements of this degree, you can defend your position (dissertation) and be granted the writ of passage to becoming "Dr_________."
I look forward to becoming Dr. Rosa Thompson, but I know the journey of a thousand miles takes daily steps. I make it my business to take those steps so I can finally arrive to the destination God has for me. Be encouraged in anything you do and remember to do something everyday that will contribute to you achieving that goal.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Divide and Conquer
Divide and Conquer is a story about my experiences as a new administrator. I will continue telling this story soon. It is a real testimony of God's power.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Identity Breach
Lately, I have questioned on many occasions my very own identity. What do I stand for? What makes me different? Am I secure in the woman I am? Am I comfortable in the skin I am in? The answer to these questions I'm sure are yes. But at certain given times I feel no, I'm not.
Because I am very sleepy right now, I will continue this thought.
Because I am very sleepy right now, I will continue this thought.
A Leader in the Making
It has been a year since I started the program. When I came onboard there was so much I needed to learn about leadership. Now that I have completed this year and am now a second year student there is still so much that I have to learn. At times I feel like I am ready for the next challenge, but feel like I need to remain in my current leadership position. For many reasons really. One being I get to finish working on my doctoral degree without the threat of a new boss telling me I can't. Two being that I am finally understanding my new position and feel a part of the team. And lastly, I am finally trusting my boss, something I really struggled with in the beginning.
I remember when I got there I was so excited about the position and new opportunity. Than doubt crept in and I had trust issues. For a number of reasons. I had observed my boss and some of the things she did caused me to seriously doubt her. I couldn't ignore it, I had to deal with it. What I found was that I needed to renew my mind. Not just every once in a while but daily. There was still reason to not trust, but not the way I had perceived it to be. As I took the matter to God and prayed about it, He began to reveal a flaw in my thinking and processing. One that could potentially cost me key relationships in the future. This process of growth and renewal of my mind was not one I was familiar with nor comfortable with.
I had to trust God more and allow Him to grow me through others. But the growing pains were more than what I was willing to bear, until God allowed me to fail. When I came to my end, I turned back to my Father in wise counsel and the only thing He could say is endure. Endure meaning, trust me in what I have allowed you to be in. The place called Meadows is the place of Past and Future. It is the place where I leave my past and the place where I walk into my future. It is an important place because the ones who He has allowed to be over me will teach me for the next place.
One thing that you must understand about this process for me, is that I hate criticism, especially unwarranted. It is not always easy for me to accept people's truth concerning me. When my boss tells me something negative about my character, I tend to be defensive. But once I consider it, I realize that even though it may not be all true, the small part that may be true is worth me drawing my attention to. A leading in the making is not made over night. It takes years of molding. Now that I am entering into year two of my study, I can honestly look back and say I have grown tremendously as a leader and an educator. When this process is over, I look forward to being the kind of leader that everyone wants on their team.
I remember when I got there I was so excited about the position and new opportunity. Than doubt crept in and I had trust issues. For a number of reasons. I had observed my boss and some of the things she did caused me to seriously doubt her. I couldn't ignore it, I had to deal with it. What I found was that I needed to renew my mind. Not just every once in a while but daily. There was still reason to not trust, but not the way I had perceived it to be. As I took the matter to God and prayed about it, He began to reveal a flaw in my thinking and processing. One that could potentially cost me key relationships in the future. This process of growth and renewal of my mind was not one I was familiar with nor comfortable with.
I had to trust God more and allow Him to grow me through others. But the growing pains were more than what I was willing to bear, until God allowed me to fail. When I came to my end, I turned back to my Father in wise counsel and the only thing He could say is endure. Endure meaning, trust me in what I have allowed you to be in. The place called Meadows is the place of Past and Future. It is the place where I leave my past and the place where I walk into my future. It is an important place because the ones who He has allowed to be over me will teach me for the next place.
One thing that you must understand about this process for me, is that I hate criticism, especially unwarranted. It is not always easy for me to accept people's truth concerning me. When my boss tells me something negative about my character, I tend to be defensive. But once I consider it, I realize that even though it may not be all true, the small part that may be true is worth me drawing my attention to. A leading in the making is not made over night. It takes years of molding. Now that I am entering into year two of my study, I can honestly look back and say I have grown tremendously as a leader and an educator. When this process is over, I look forward to being the kind of leader that everyone wants on their team.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
School of Hard Knocks
Message sponsored by University of Reality
Attention: The School of Hard Knocks is now accepting applications for enrollment. Tuition is free, automatic admission is granted, no need to send transcripts. Open enrollment is available year round.
Course of study: Real Life Lessons 101
Core: Decisions
Electives: Mistakes, lots of them to choose from
Professors: Dr. Life and Dr. Lesson
Program Length: It's really up to you
Prospective Students: Anyone who doesn't learn the easy way and desires a more rigorous program. This program is especially designed for those in need of differentiated instruction and hands on learning. If that is you call us at 1-800-Hard-Lesson.
Degrees Earned: B.A., M.A., and PhD
Major: Philosophy of Life
Minor: Wisdom
Advantages of attending the School of Hard Knocks vs. other schools, the lessons from this school last a lifetime and are unforgetable.
Credits earned from the School of Hard Knocks are transferable.
Voted Best School in the World by former students.
This weekend I spent time with my very troubled nephew who spends his life in this school. It made me wonder why some people chose this school over the other schools. There are many teachers in life. We don't have to look to far to find them. Sometimes the decisions we make become our teachers.
As an emerging leader, I am a student of one or the other school. It's really up to me whether I want to learn the lesson the easy way or the hard way. Either way, the lesson will be learned. I am the apprentice. The student who is trying to become the leader.
Do you ever wonder why people repeat the same mistakes over and over again? It's because they are enrolled in the School of Hard Knocks. They haven't gotten the lesson yet and have to repeat the course until they get it right. If you noticed in my offerings of degrees I listed PhD. The reason why is because for some people it takes them years to finally get it. They don't get ABD, they get the PhD once they finally get it and break out of the vicious patterns they have lived in for years. The good news is that once you get it, you got it. Some people just have to learn by doing.
The sad reality is that I've been a former student of the School of Hard Knocks. And shamefully enough, every once in a while, I sign up for another course. I hope to some day graduate indefinately, but I doubt that some day is anywhere near. Dean of Hard Knocks, please keep my enrollment status open. I have a feeling I may be enrolling again soon. :)
Attention: The School of Hard Knocks is now accepting applications for enrollment. Tuition is free, automatic admission is granted, no need to send transcripts. Open enrollment is available year round.
Course of study: Real Life Lessons 101
Core: Decisions
Electives: Mistakes, lots of them to choose from
Professors: Dr. Life and Dr. Lesson
Program Length: It's really up to you
Prospective Students: Anyone who doesn't learn the easy way and desires a more rigorous program. This program is especially designed for those in need of differentiated instruction and hands on learning. If that is you call us at 1-800-Hard-Lesson.
Degrees Earned: B.A., M.A., and PhD
Major: Philosophy of Life
Minor: Wisdom
Advantages of attending the School of Hard Knocks vs. other schools, the lessons from this school last a lifetime and are unforgetable.
Credits earned from the School of Hard Knocks are transferable.
Voted Best School in the World by former students.
This weekend I spent time with my very troubled nephew who spends his life in this school. It made me wonder why some people chose this school over the other schools. There are many teachers in life. We don't have to look to far to find them. Sometimes the decisions we make become our teachers.
As an emerging leader, I am a student of one or the other school. It's really up to me whether I want to learn the lesson the easy way or the hard way. Either way, the lesson will be learned. I am the apprentice. The student who is trying to become the leader.
Do you ever wonder why people repeat the same mistakes over and over again? It's because they are enrolled in the School of Hard Knocks. They haven't gotten the lesson yet and have to repeat the course until they get it right. If you noticed in my offerings of degrees I listed PhD. The reason why is because for some people it takes them years to finally get it. They don't get ABD, they get the PhD once they finally get it and break out of the vicious patterns they have lived in for years. The good news is that once you get it, you got it. Some people just have to learn by doing.
The sad reality is that I've been a former student of the School of Hard Knocks. And shamefully enough, every once in a while, I sign up for another course. I hope to some day graduate indefinately, but I doubt that some day is anywhere near. Dean of Hard Knocks, please keep my enrollment status open. I have a feeling I may be enrolling again soon. :)
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Leadership 101
Leadership can be found everywhere. For a long time I had a misconception that leadership came with position and power. But now that I am wiser, I realize that leadership can be in anyone. I was watching a movie and the person you would think would be a leader wasn't. It was the one that everyone was willing to follow.
At that moment I realized that anyone who can persuade anyone to follow them is a leader. When I look at the school setting in this way I see many leaders. From the custodian that persuades his staff to do the work, to secretaries that persuade the principal concerning systems, to teachers on the grade level that speak for the whole team and no one objects, you see an emerging leader.
As I sit back and watch crowds of people in a busy mall I see many examples of leadership. The mother who says it is time to go we have shopped enough and everyone agrees and follows her out the door, to the girls who shop together to than ask the one in the group what they think about their outfit, and that decision to purchase is left at the discretion of that one individual, to the father that explains to his son why purchasing that game system now is not a good idea because in a few days it will go on sale. There are countless opportunities to see leadership firsthand if you sit back and watch the process happen naturally.
Which brings me to my next point. We are all leaders at some point. We don't necessarily have to obtain the title to be known as one. Even with the title there are several leaders who don't know how to lead. They respect the position but don't follow the leader.
I read a quote today that read, "together you can do so much more." If you are a leader who can persuade others, together you can achieve more. In reading The Six Secrets of Change, one of the major contributors to applying change is getting people to follow you. If you can't lead them you won't be able to change them.
One of my best friends is very successful in helping me to view things in a different perspective and change, primarily because I know he cares about me, I trust him, and most importantly...I know he is going to lead me in the right direction.
Leaders need to stand for something, believe in something, and be walking in the right direction. When people see this integrity, passion, and desire to do what is right for the whole, they begin following. They will chase you down a rabbit hole if they think that you can take them somewhere they have never been before. They believe and in that belief they are willing to allow you to lead them.
Sometimes, un-consciously you lead people. I remember being at my old school and doing things such as seeking an advance degree, getting principal certification, and preparing myself for the doctoral level, when I looked back, I had many followers who before were not trying to get an advance degree or any other certifications. I had somehow inspired several people in the building to pursue more and want more. My capacity and thirst for life spilled over into their cups. What I was able to share fueled their desires and ignited ambition. I didn't see myself as a leader, I just seen a dream I was chasing, what I believed in, and what I was passionate about.
At that moment I realized that anyone who can persuade anyone to follow them is a leader. When I look at the school setting in this way I see many leaders. From the custodian that persuades his staff to do the work, to secretaries that persuade the principal concerning systems, to teachers on the grade level that speak for the whole team and no one objects, you see an emerging leader.
As I sit back and watch crowds of people in a busy mall I see many examples of leadership. The mother who says it is time to go we have shopped enough and everyone agrees and follows her out the door, to the girls who shop together to than ask the one in the group what they think about their outfit, and that decision to purchase is left at the discretion of that one individual, to the father that explains to his son why purchasing that game system now is not a good idea because in a few days it will go on sale. There are countless opportunities to see leadership firsthand if you sit back and watch the process happen naturally.
Which brings me to my next point. We are all leaders at some point. We don't necessarily have to obtain the title to be known as one. Even with the title there are several leaders who don't know how to lead. They respect the position but don't follow the leader.
I read a quote today that read, "together you can do so much more." If you are a leader who can persuade others, together you can achieve more. In reading The Six Secrets of Change, one of the major contributors to applying change is getting people to follow you. If you can't lead them you won't be able to change them.
One of my best friends is very successful in helping me to view things in a different perspective and change, primarily because I know he cares about me, I trust him, and most importantly...I know he is going to lead me in the right direction.
Leaders need to stand for something, believe in something, and be walking in the right direction. When people see this integrity, passion, and desire to do what is right for the whole, they begin following. They will chase you down a rabbit hole if they think that you can take them somewhere they have never been before. They believe and in that belief they are willing to allow you to lead them.
Sometimes, un-consciously you lead people. I remember being at my old school and doing things such as seeking an advance degree, getting principal certification, and preparing myself for the doctoral level, when I looked back, I had many followers who before were not trying to get an advance degree or any other certifications. I had somehow inspired several people in the building to pursue more and want more. My capacity and thirst for life spilled over into their cups. What I was able to share fueled their desires and ignited ambition. I didn't see myself as a leader, I just seen a dream I was chasing, what I believed in, and what I was passionate about.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
The Respectful Mind
In 5 Minds for the Future I studied the Respectful mind as part of my group assignment. The respectful mind analyzes how we view others and as a result how are relationships are formed.
The main idea is to view all humans as one. A community. The idea is to move away from relating to one group of individuals to trying to relate and respect all groups of individuals. Lack of respect is the number one killer of relationships. As an emerging leader I had to analyze my own views. Do I respect everyone? I like to think that I do, the reality is there are some people I don't respect, primarily because of their actions.
The problem is allowing the actions to determine your lack of respect for the group of people the individual belongs to. I have to remind my self that it is the action I don't respect and not the individual, but often times seperating the two is where we sometimes go wrong.
When you look at some of history's examples of leaders, you find many great examples of leaders who had a respectful mind and those who didn't. Two great examples are Martin Luther King Jr. and Adolf Hitler. MLK Jr. had a respectful mind because he viewed everyone as one and wanted everyone to share in eqaulity. Hitler had a disrespectful mind because of the atrocities he committed to a certain group of individuals (Jews). He also, didn't care for other races and disabled people.
In order to have a respectful mind you will need to see society as a whole and not identify with just the group that you are familiar with. The problem is, we have been doing this since the beginning of time. Social networks like FaceBook don't make it any better.
In a world that is ever changing, this paradigm shift wil need to be one that is embraced.
The main idea is to view all humans as one. A community. The idea is to move away from relating to one group of individuals to trying to relate and respect all groups of individuals. Lack of respect is the number one killer of relationships. As an emerging leader I had to analyze my own views. Do I respect everyone? I like to think that I do, the reality is there are some people I don't respect, primarily because of their actions.
The problem is allowing the actions to determine your lack of respect for the group of people the individual belongs to. I have to remind my self that it is the action I don't respect and not the individual, but often times seperating the two is where we sometimes go wrong.
When you look at some of history's examples of leaders, you find many great examples of leaders who had a respectful mind and those who didn't. Two great examples are Martin Luther King Jr. and Adolf Hitler. MLK Jr. had a respectful mind because he viewed everyone as one and wanted everyone to share in eqaulity. Hitler had a disrespectful mind because of the atrocities he committed to a certain group of individuals (Jews). He also, didn't care for other races and disabled people.
In order to have a respectful mind you will need to see society as a whole and not identify with just the group that you are familiar with. The problem is, we have been doing this since the beginning of time. Social networks like FaceBook don't make it any better.
In a world that is ever changing, this paradigm shift wil need to be one that is embraced.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Finding My Way...For I Am Lost Again
Today was a rough day. I'm feeling like I want to quit my job again. What a dysfunctional team God placed me under. I have a principal who doesn't support me, an assistant principal who tries to undermine me, and a secretary and a 4th grade teacher who want to both do my job.
Til this day my principal hasn't given me any clear descriptions on my job duties or expectations. She did however, give me a list of administrative duties. The problem is, when I try to do my job, I can't. I do the job and operate in a spirit of excellence, but there are people in the building who think they can do what they want and step in my lane.
Meanwhile, I sit back and observe. I'm tired of making observations. I am ready to start addressing individuals, but the dilemma always is whether I will get the support I will need. I feel like I am in a lose-lose situation.
I am not sure what God's plan is. What I do know is that I am not comfortable with it right now. I am afraid that it may look bad on my appraisal even though I am doing what I am suppose to do. But how can you effectively do a job when so many variables are in the way? How do you rate that?
When I think my job is one thing, it looks like another. I am unclear what is expected of me. I need structure in my life. I have always needed it. Maybe the lesson here is let Me (God) be your structure and stop depending on Man to provide the structure and identity you need. I need to seek Him and be comfortable where He has placed me. He has a plan for this place and I need to be flexible, comfortable, trusting of His plan (easier said than done). After all, it is His plan, I am but a pawn in the grand scheme of things.
I just hope that I learn the lesson and from this I learn how to be the leader God desires, not Man. Jesus said, "He is the Way, the Truth, and the Light." I will follow Him, and in following Him, not only will I find my way, but will discover my purpose.
Til this day my principal hasn't given me any clear descriptions on my job duties or expectations. She did however, give me a list of administrative duties. The problem is, when I try to do my job, I can't. I do the job and operate in a spirit of excellence, but there are people in the building who think they can do what they want and step in my lane.
Meanwhile, I sit back and observe. I'm tired of making observations. I am ready to start addressing individuals, but the dilemma always is whether I will get the support I will need. I feel like I am in a lose-lose situation.
I am not sure what God's plan is. What I do know is that I am not comfortable with it right now. I am afraid that it may look bad on my appraisal even though I am doing what I am suppose to do. But how can you effectively do a job when so many variables are in the way? How do you rate that?
When I think my job is one thing, it looks like another. I am unclear what is expected of me. I need structure in my life. I have always needed it. Maybe the lesson here is let Me (God) be your structure and stop depending on Man to provide the structure and identity you need. I need to seek Him and be comfortable where He has placed me. He has a plan for this place and I need to be flexible, comfortable, trusting of His plan (easier said than done). After all, it is His plan, I am but a pawn in the grand scheme of things.
I just hope that I learn the lesson and from this I learn how to be the leader God desires, not Man. Jesus said, "He is the Way, the Truth, and the Light." I will follow Him, and in following Him, not only will I find my way, but will discover my purpose.
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